Getting ready to get ready for school (How to have willpower)

School list - got it. Motivation to shop - oh, please. Budget - don't got it.

I mean, yes, I could ignore/defer another bill to go shopping NOW. Or I could wait until my planned trip on the third weekend in August when I have the appropriate and expected funds to fill my basket at the local giant discount store. I just get so impatient to have everything ready!

With the lack of pregnancy-induced nesting to blame, I guess I have to call it what it is - shopaholism. I just want to go get stuff I can justify. Buying for the kids is too easy. But I have to/want to/need to buy a house this year. So I am TRYING to behave myself these days. So, I wait until it is right.

My daughter even sees it in my face when she asks me to get her list filled - the glow starts to appear, the lean toward my pocketbook, and the anticipatory eye-rolling as I calculate how much time I will need to get there and back before I need to be somewhere else... she's seen it before, this shopping readiness of mine. But, then I stop and say, "Nope - I have that planned for August 22." Damn the willpower. SO unfulfilling.

I hate the thought of only buying a few things at a time. That SO won't cut it. I want to buy it all at once. I LOVE the thought of having all the pencils, markers, binders, glue, paper, tissues, etc. in the cart at one time. THAT is fulfilling. Ryan is only 4. Wait until both kids need stuff - that will be an ORGY of school shopping! I tremble at the thought. Hee hee hee.

Until then, I will have to simply enjoy my ability to wait - THAT will have to suffice as my gratification.